Giving Back to the Community

However, we still went anyways as it was compulsory and also our responsibility to complete activities within the module. That day when Fufy and I entered the class, we were quite shocked to see not even one of our students present in the class. After waiting for around 15-20 minutes, the students trudged in one by one (apparently they had been held back my teachers to be punished). The atmosphere in the class was really tensed and anyone can see that everyone was just not feeling it that day. Without wasting anymore time, we gathered all of them at the back of the class to get started with the choral speaking.

After 15 minutes of trying to round them up and get started, it was really starting to make me feel pissed. I was thinking thoughts of - why did I even sign up for this and why am I wasting time on kids who clearly have no interest of doing this or any intention of cooperating with the activities laid out. Once it got too out of hand, we had to resort in raising our voices trying to quiet them down and get them to cooperate with us. We event started saying things like, "We both know you all would rather be anywhere but here, but trust me, we would rather be anywhere else but here too. But what can we do? Sometimes we do not get what we want. So deal with us. It is just two hours anyways." I was wondering if I had been too lenient and nice with them for the past weeks coming that they do not even respect us as the teachers anymore. It got so bad to an extend they would just ignore us while we were trying our best to make it work. At one point we even had to call Miss Pauline in to try and make the situation better because we were just both at wits end.

I have never been so relieved to hear the ringing of the bell that day.  We were both just so done with the class that day. I generally count myself as a very patient person, but that day was really just too much for me. I have tried and tried to keep it professional, be on their level and try to understand them but sometimes I feel, you really cannot help those who do not even want to help themselves. Maybe I was just in a crappy mood in general but with my personality as it is, I really am one of those people who can not be bothered with people who can not be bothered too. There is just so much you can do for them.

Sixth (Last) Visit:

Today was supposed to be finishing touches of the performance and gratefully, they were more cooperative this week compared to the previous week. THANK THE LORD 🙌 They were more interactive and easier to deal with compared to the last week, probably because it was the final week of the sessions. We were also feeling more chill today compared to the last week. Apparently we found out why they were so terrible and hard to deal with last week cause their teachers had scolded them right before their session with us and since I was a student before, I understand how they would feel. I would probably not have the mood to do anything as well.